Your Personality Is

Guardian (SJ)

You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented.
Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules.

You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader.
You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you.

A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do.
You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up.

In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly.

At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions.

With others, you tend to be polite and formal.

As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself.

On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them!

er, what does SJ mean?


What is Your Life Path Number?

Your Life Path Number is 9

Your purpose in life is to make the world better

You are very socially conscious and a total idealist.
You think there are many things wrong with the world, and you want to fix them.
You have a big idea of how to world could be, and you'll sacrifice almost anything to work towards this dream.

In love, you can easily see the beauty in someone else. And you never cling too tightly.

You are capable of great love, but it's hard for you to focus your love on one person or relationship.
You have a lot of outward focus, and you tend to blame the world for your failures.
You are often disappointed by the realities of life - it's hard for you to accept the shortcomings of the world.

got this from cy's blog.

agree na sana e, kaso... akusahan ba ng infidelity?


slacking off

the problem with vacations is that they tend to set you off the track. being set off the track is the enjoyable part really, just letting yourself go with the flow reassuring yourself that you'll have plenty of time to catch up later. but getting back on track is the more problematic part. it's like trying to climb a steep mountain; sometimes it's so easy to just let yourself slide down (if you have your harness) than to go up.

that's what has been happening to me lately. ever since christmas break, or even before christmas, i've been slacking off. it doesn't really help that our professors this sem are inching their way towards retirement--their lectures are at times excruciatingly slow and their voices...well, they do tend to speak monotonously. cue music and off we go to dreamland.

the thought of having two weeks off creates an illusion that you have lots of time in the world and that a few moments of bumming around at the start won't really hurt--not until those two weeks are gone and you still face the same pile of readings.

then you console yourself at the thought that at the very least, you've lived vacation to its truest sense and you spent more quality time with your family. what could be better than that?

but then midway into january you still find yourself struggling to shake off that vacation mode. you look at the calendar--a little over two months left before judgment day, a.k.a. finals. it's half-way through the sem and you still haven't done half of what you're supposed to do. panic ensues...you resolve to do better, pour more hours into your study and do away with distractions.

then your relatives invite you to spellbound, or star city, or worse, shake, rattle and roll! would you say no? uhm, let me think about that for a minute...what the hell, times like these are rare so better make the most out of them. besides, it's not often that you get to enjoy these things without spending a cent. and you're not really wasting your time, it's your family!

and so off you go, you enjoy the moment. you scream at the top of your lungs as the flying carpet thrusts you up into the air, leaves you hanging in mid-air for a second and quickly pulls you down creating that funny sensation that you left your stomach somewhere up there. you go to the next ride scaring yourself to death at the thought that as the machine whirls, a cable might snap hurling you into the air and into your doom but while you're at it, you wonder if that's how superman must have felt, flying up there parallel to the ground.

and finally, after you've conquered your fears, you go scare other people off inside those not-so-creepy horror mazes and find yourself laughing so hard at the sight of people so horrified they'd actually fall on top of each other as they run clutching each other's shirts. star city really knows how to entertain.

then, as classes near, with your first class for the week barely hours away and you still haven't touched your readings yet, you wonder if you could've spent your weekend a little better. you wonder, too, if the time you spent writing about it could have gone to studying, er, cramming for the next day.

and you blame vacations for it.

but what the heck. there's no use regretting time spent. there's nothing to regret really because everything is an experience worth retelling.

and so when ma'am chit asks you what you did over the weekend that's not law-related, you tell her i scared myself to death and realized i can conquer my fears. then you make yourself believe that after what you've been through, no pile of readings is insurmountable (you wish!). that way, you would've made those times spent away from studying worth it--just by enjoying and learning from all the experiences...by living the moment.

who says slacking off has no value?

pardon my pathetic attempt to justify my slacking off.


random thoughts

so many things happened over the christmas break, i'm now starting to regret i didn't write anything about them. the oc in me wants to list down everything, if only to make sure that this is an accurate blow-by-blow account, but nah, i'm just too lazy to even start thinking about them.

the more significant things however i just have to mention:

rhea's finally through with her contract with you-know-which network. i joined her on her last sunday there (when bosses weren't around). it felt like she wasn't leaving at all. she put in more than 12 hours of work (straight from batangas without sleep) and was so engrossed with what she was doing that she barely ate at all. i can't bear seeing her that way everyday so i'm just happy the ordeal is over (not that it was a horrible experience). although i was a bit sad when she made up her mind a few weeks ago (bye bye promotion and the chance to work with sir howie), it's a decision she has to make for herself. if she's not happy, there's no point staying.

i did get to see some of my old blockmates in a reunion of sorts. it just feels so good to see old familiar faces again--people you've missed through the past months and people you wished you'd be spending more time with. most of them are leaving or have left their jobs too, looking for more meaningful work where they can grow and just enjoy the experience. the others are pretty much happy where they are. over kare-kare, fish, lumpia, pancit and beer, we took our time reminiscing days past, as if they happened just recently. it was a fitting dinner to cap a grueling day (after 7 hours with rhea for her shopping spree...now i know why guys don't like helping girls do their shopping--masakit sa paa!)

at home, we also had our own reunion. my parents weren't here but some of my relatives from my mother's side were here for the holidays. it's fun having so many kids around. there's just something about children that takes all your stress away. is it their innocence, their smile, or their baby fats? i don't know. my brother and i can't resist ogling at cute babies wherever we go. they never fail to amuse both of us.

one freak accident, however, marred our new year celebration. while all of us were out jumping and blowing our torotots shortly before midnight, a firecracker in flames fell from the sky and hit my 6-year-old cousin. an aunt of mine quickly grabbed little buddha (the monicker i gave him) and embraced him to keep him from crying. as she loosened her hold on him, i was alarmed to see that the flames bore a hole on his shirt, on the left chest portion, the one closest to the heart. then a cousin shouted, "may dugo!" God, this can't be a tragedy, i prayed as we rushed him inside the house. i ran upstairs to get my brother's medical kit, grabbed some towels and raced back to a crowd that by then had surrounded my cousin, watching in horror as he was given first aid treatment. i could see his elder brother trembling, standing from a distance while his parents cleaned the wounds, trying to calm the child down while fighting back their own fears. luckily for my cousin, all he suffered were first-degree burns on the left chest and on his left hand. he didn't lose any of his fingers, and his heart was safely beating. that was just the best gift i've received in my whole life and i can't thank Him enough for it.

school is back again but for some reason, it seems as if the vacation's not over. these past few days i've been spending more time with relatives right after class--watching spellbound; exodus; shake, rattle and roll, among others. the other night i had to beg off from star city because i simply had to study. tomorrow, we're off to tagaytay. there goes my precious study time. but what the heck. the family's more important than anything else. won't exchange these bonding moments for an uno which i can't even eat. (at least with my relatives, there's food--lots of them, hmmmm...yummy).

anyway, i started jogging around the oval this afternoon--the first time in 4 years i think. the last time, i was still in the cocc program. i spent most of the 2 rounds walking anyway so it hardly counts as jogging but it was just enough to sweat and burn some of those excess fats away. hope this becomes a regular habit with my health-conscious blockmates. as a result of the jogging though, i missed the electoral judicial tribunal meeting (law school's version of comelec). plus, a blockmate dragged us into committing to the gradcomm core group. my god, i thought i'm done with all these things.

on sadder news, i lost my file case today. i left it near the fishball stand and it was gone an hour later. what could be more depressing than losing your readings? manakaw na lahat wag lang readings. on the brighter side, those files are recoverable anyway so if nobody is kind enough to return them, i can have them photocopied--again! ah, blessing's is really getting a lot of blessings these days. it's a good thing they thought of giving us calendar-planners and pocket diaries. now, that's a blessing.

my tickle test result puzzled me at first. would you believe my color is green?

You're green, the color of growth and vigor. Good-hearted and giving, you have a knack for finding and bringing out the best in people. Green is the most down-to-earth color in the spectrum - reliable and trustworthy. People know they can count on you to be around in times of need, since your concern for people is genuine and sincere. You take pride in being a good friend. For you, success is measured in terms of personal achievement and growth, not by status or position. Rare as emeralds, greens are wonderful, natural people. It truly is your color!

rhea thinks it was more likely black the first time we met.

Your color is black. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them - your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness - trust us, it won't kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it's clearly the color for you.

then it became brown.

You're brown, a credible, stable color that's reminiscent of fine wood, rich leather, and wistful melancholy. Most likely, you're a logical, practical person ruled more by your head than your heart. With your inquisitive mind and insatiable curiosity, you're probably a great problem solver. And you always gather all of the facts before coming to a timely, informed decision. Easily intrigued, you're constantly finding new ways to challenge your mind, whether it's by reading the newspaper, playing a trivia game, or composing a piece of music. Brown is an impartial, neutral color, which means you tend to see the difference between fact and opinion easily and are open to many points of view. Trustworthy and steady, you really are a brown at heart.

but she does point out that maybe i've probably changed these past few years. or maybe not. whatever, it's just a test.