new york

photo credit: Mihai Andritoiu

while browsing through some pictures of one world trade center on the anniversary of 9/11, i came across the stunning photo above. it's not the typical image of new york (the one with either the brooklyn bridge, the statue of liberty or the manhattan skyline), but with the skyscrapers in the background, you just know it's the big apple.

incidentally, this photo was taken on april 6, 2013, when i was in the city (visited the memorial, hopped on a ferry, walked on wall street, dropped by some museums and took a stroll on central park). simply one of the happiest days in my life. those were the days.

how time flies, how things change.

for whatever it's worth, this was true. it happened. and i will forever cherish its memory.

..........

sorry is probably the last thing you'll want to hear. but i really am. sorry for all the hurt, sorry for all the pain.

someday, i hope you could forgive me. someday, i hope you could smile again and bring sunshine into someone else's life, just as you did in mine. you deserve nothing but happiness.

for now, let me enjoy this darkness, this gloom, i hope i can still get out of.

tragic figure

i think i will be a tragic figure.



sucessful, maybe. able to help a lot of people, perhaps.

but in the end, never really happy, never satisfied with what life has to offer.



and so, I may just choose to run away.

or end it all.



either that, or a car crash on board my dream car will seal my fate.



happiness, where thou shall i find thee?



#morbidthoughts #premonition #deathforetold

free fall

letting go of all things stable and secure.



sucks to be lost. scared shit of the uncertainty.

but must not waiver; no turning back now.

must get out of the comfort zone.



i just hope that in the end, i'll find myself intact.

and happy.



and everything will have been worth it.

someday

one of these days, i will fill these pages with words, phrases, and sentences of my own choosing.

when life once again inspires me to write.

when the world is no longer as bleak as it seems.

when i find my own voice again.

til then.

haunting

Maroon 5 - Daylight by Solo_estrenos
daylight
maroon5

something about this song moves me.

it's nostalgic, but the song's rhythm just pulls you through.

you know that something good is about to come to an end, but something better is coming.

and everything's going to be alright.
..........

maybe

Sick Puppies - Maybe from Jed Root, Inc. on Vimeo.

MAYBE
Sick Puppies

Maybe I'm a dreamer
Maybe I'm misunderstood
Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should
Maybe I'm crazy
(Maybe I'm crazy)
Maybe I'm the only one
(Maybe I'm the only one)
Maybe I'm just out of touch
Maybe I've just had enough

Maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change

Maybe it's hopeless
(Maybe it's hopeless)
Maybe I should just give up
(Maybe I should just give up)
What if I can't trust myself?
What if I just need some help?

Maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change

And maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try

And maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change

..........
to a better life for all of us.

and to a friend who has gone ahead of us, rest well. i hope you have lived the life you love, and loved the life you lived.